Fake? Or Real?

I guess that sometimes, certain people can be too much of a bastards in our eyes, but they might not be really that way. Let's say, me. I indirectly acted in a way today that showed that I don't trust my friends, although that wasn't my intention. My intention was just that I didn't like what they were doing. There's a thin line, but people often don't see it there.

Another example of misunderstandings. You talk this person A, and he replies you in monotone or weirdly, or even no response. You, according to common sense, assumes he has attitude problems. Ever occur to you he might be shy, or unconfident of himself? Or that he doesn't know what to say, or how to reply? Nope, we assume the worse case scenarios. He/She has an attitude problem. Even I do it. Guilty party Number 1. *Raises hand*


Things like this happen in society everyday. To me, it happens a lot. For example, I don't talk much during work, not during Japanese lessons. While MAYBE (not sure) my colleagues/classmates might think that I have issues, the simple answer to it is that I have nothing to say to them. I don't know how to react when they try to socialise. It seems rude, but basically, I am just not confident of myself. I have nothing to bring out to them anyway.

Sometimes, when we say that people are "fake", let's think. Maybe, they are trying to make a new "real". Criticizing may bring them down. Not everyone's as mentally strong as you, you know. They try to make a new image because you (in other words, we) don't accept them for who they are naturally.

Maybe, just maybe, we should be forgiving.

Sorry.

Hi

Happy Chinese New Year! Like Chi Kit said, hope all your angpows are the same size as me! :]

This is the suckiest CNY I ever had. The others can almost also be put into comparison.

That aside, I have this nagging feeling recently.

My chest feels empty all of a sudden. It feels like something is missing. I don't know what the hell is.

OK, maybe deep down, I do, but on the surface, I have no idea what is causing this emptiness. I hope I can find out when I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

I need to fill it up after all.