I planned it with Shida for 2 weeks. End result? Not one of them are coming. I'm not... sad, in a sense. I'm just damn disappointed. And I've really lost confidence.
It's always like that. I organise one event, get all excited and hyped up about it, but in the end,it never happens. This kind of feeling makes me damn annoyed.
I know I have no charisma like a leader or an organiser should have. No humour, no getting along factor, nothing. Shida's group has a girl even willing to take leave just solely for this event. Mine? "Sorry, CMI.", "Sorry, since my friends aren't going..." etc etc. Fine, fine... I get the message.
After tomorrow's outing, I'm going to concentrate on doing my DFP with ZY and gang, plus shirt designs. I'm not going to bother myself with organising another outing for them. I hate groups like mine that has zero solidarity. Maybe it is my fault. That explains why I hate myself too, huh?
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