Wrathful

I feel recently that my level to handle stress has been at a low. I get angry easily.

Work:
MDC has been okay at the start, but with the F1 project underway... me and Garry has been coughing blood. Working out ergonomics of car and sitting positions makes me really appreciate car-makers out there. They're good at their jobs, and whenever I sit in a car next time, I will definitely thank them for all their hard work. It doesn't help that I have an unfriendly supervisor who picks on me and my teammates everyday. His presence just purely pisses me off.

Health:
I haven't been in good health lately. Caught a flu, and accidentally spread it to Garry. Sorry about that, bro. In addition to that, my body's been really heaty lately. Due to my part time job, I've also been skipping dinners. Don't tell me it's unhealthy. I know, but time is not on my side. Walked through the rain a couple of times too, due to the bad weather.

Only healthy thing I've been doing is skating. Whenever I feel like I am in a bad mood, I power skate because the adrenaline of going fast and fighting the danger of falling down and injuring myself seriously takes things off my mind.

Feelings:
Recently, I've got this thing for this girl. I don't know why. I fell in love with her at first sight.

Guys, you might think this is tiresome, so ignore this part if you don't like to read it.

Around her, I get a little shy, lose appetite, stutter and get into accidents. I miss her on days I don't see her. People around me make fun of me and her, but I don't mind.

I feel like she is very important to me. I've been given advice and help, but to be honest, I blame myself for being a natural coward. I want to make her happy.

I'm afraid that we might not even end up friends if she were to know my feelings for her. It wouldn't just affect me. It would affect all the friends around us. And I'm scared.

That fears gives me stress, which makes me angrier at myself for not being able to arrive at solutions...

I need some off time.