Times when you realise you're close to losing something close to you are really the times your emotional strength is put to the test.
The worse is when nothing can be done about it. The loss is determined. Waiting for it and hoping it won't come soon. Standing there sadly, watching, holding back the tears. Sadness enveloping the surroundings. It sucks to know you're going to lose something close to you. The pain, the heart's sudden clouding. The powerlessness.
I'm not strong. Every human is weak. It's because we have companionship. Friends. Family. We have those to get through. To become stronger. When you might lose one of them... how would you feel? I'm especially weak. I don't want to lose anything. I'm greedy, aren't I?
Please, God, grant me that little wish.
Seems like my CNY this year might not be so good at all...
Friday, January 14, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
:O
Well, 2011's been nothing less than tiring!
A new year may represent new hopes and dreams, but to be honest, most people's routines don't change much. Take me for example. I still clock in at 9am every morning to MDC and draw my F1 designs with Garry everyday. Geez, talk about unchanging.
Can something exciting happen already? Like MDC catch fire or something (JUST A VALID EXAMPLE).
Open House and Spinnovex was so amazing. The MDC bros all got booths. Me and Garry had to tend to the Solid Dispenser and a Gap Clearing Wheelchair. 9 hours of standing up do explaining per day. SIMPLY AMAZING.
But I gotta admit, the FYPs of other people were awesome. Rapid DIY Transporters, simulators left and right and amazing R/C helicopters. It was a great Open House. Though I wish I had more time to take bus tours to disturb my ACER buddies.
Aftermath was a bitch though. Due to too much popcorn and cotton candy, I got this annoying ulcer which caused me so much trouble. I couldn't open up my mouth fully, chew down completely, and it hurts to boot. Till now, it still isn't fully recovered. To add to the pain, sore throat followed. You could imagine the pain now.
2011 had a lot of burdens that were carried over from 2010 too. There are just... things that haunt us wherever we go. I hope I can get it over with.
Ciao, folks. ;]
A new year may represent new hopes and dreams, but to be honest, most people's routines don't change much. Take me for example. I still clock in at 9am every morning to MDC and draw my F1 designs with Garry everyday. Geez, talk about unchanging.
Can something exciting happen already? Like MDC catch fire or something (JUST A VALID EXAMPLE).
Open House and Spinnovex was so amazing. The MDC bros all got booths. Me and Garry had to tend to the Solid Dispenser and a Gap Clearing Wheelchair. 9 hours of standing up do explaining per day. SIMPLY AMAZING.
But I gotta admit, the FYPs of other people were awesome. Rapid DIY Transporters, simulators left and right and amazing R/C helicopters. It was a great Open House. Though I wish I had more time to take bus tours to disturb my ACER buddies.
Aftermath was a bitch though. Due to too much popcorn and cotton candy, I got this annoying ulcer which caused me so much trouble. I couldn't open up my mouth fully, chew down completely, and it hurts to boot. Till now, it still isn't fully recovered. To add to the pain, sore throat followed. You could imagine the pain now.
2011 had a lot of burdens that were carried over from 2010 too. There are just... things that haunt us wherever we go. I hope I can get it over with.
Ciao, folks. ;]
Saturday, January 1, 2011
New Year, new dreams, new hopes, new beginning, new me
Somehow, the New Year came by with a bang! (since there were fireworks at Vivo where we were). Seriously, we caused a commotion, haha. The party streamers sure were sticky!
Happy 19th birthday, Haikal!
We had party streamers, a small cake (which I got smashed at!) and fireworks. Sitting around, chatting, sleeping at the streets. Haha, this is New Year 2011.
Now then, the new year is here! Resolutions to be made, a whole new year to look forward to.
I finally managed to move on, everything faded like the fireworks. Sorry for worrying all of you for the past year.
My NY resolutions:
1) To skate more and more
Like Haikal would say, if sports were to be your hobby, you can be healthy while enjoying it. I agree. I recently really got hooked on to inlining again. For some reason, the passion is more than before. Maybe it's cos I got a bro who's progressing even further than me though he learnt it two years later than me. Nonetheless, I'm going to skate more!
2) Lose more weight
This is a yearly resolution for me, haha. I managed to lose some weight compared to last year, due to lack of time to eat, which is a bad way of losing weight. I should start to lose weight healthily. Skating more is a plan. Maybe gym? I'll have to see how it goes~ Anyway, NS is coming soon. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
3) To make as many people laugh and smile as possible
I enjoy it when people are laughing or smiling because I did something. It always feels like a great achievement when I raise people's spirits, even if it is for a short moment. I want to make the people around me happy. This is a tough task, but the fact is that anyone can do it, and I might as well be that "anyone".
4) To not neglect friends
Sometimes, I realise that I accidentally isolate certain friends when I stick to another clique too much. Big no no. Every friend is important. I will treasure every single one of them, as I know some of them treasure me too.
5) To learn how to cook healthy, exotic, cost effective dishes.
I want to be in the food industry. No secret. I need to start learning how to cook healthily, but cost effective. The main focus is to make the food still delicious after all that.
6) Not to annoy anyone
I realise I can really annoy people sometimes. Time to stop that!
7) To be less sensitive.
I recently got wind of the fact that I can be sensitive. I really do need to get that part of me into shape. I get affected by trivial matters, and I can really get upset due to it. Time to stop that~
8) To save up more money and not spend it quickly
I realise that it's not that I cannot save up money. I can do it, but I can also spend it pretty fast. I'm an adult now, and I should value money. With that said, I've got to limit my expenditures! Eat cheaper outside, and don't give excuses to spend!
Well, can I live up to my own expectations? Let's try.
Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!! Hope you all have a great 2011!
P.S.: I realised that my birthday this year will be 11/11/11, ahahahahaha...
Happy 19th birthday, Haikal!
We had party streamers, a small cake (which I got smashed at!) and fireworks. Sitting around, chatting, sleeping at the streets. Haha, this is New Year 2011.
Now then, the new year is here! Resolutions to be made, a whole new year to look forward to.
I finally managed to move on, everything faded like the fireworks. Sorry for worrying all of you for the past year.
My NY resolutions:
1) To skate more and more
Like Haikal would say, if sports were to be your hobby, you can be healthy while enjoying it. I agree. I recently really got hooked on to inlining again. For some reason, the passion is more than before. Maybe it's cos I got a bro who's progressing even further than me though he learnt it two years later than me. Nonetheless, I'm going to skate more!
2) Lose more weight
This is a yearly resolution for me, haha. I managed to lose some weight compared to last year, due to lack of time to eat, which is a bad way of losing weight. I should start to lose weight healthily. Skating more is a plan. Maybe gym? I'll have to see how it goes~ Anyway, NS is coming soon. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
3) To make as many people laugh and smile as possible
I enjoy it when people are laughing or smiling because I did something. It always feels like a great achievement when I raise people's spirits, even if it is for a short moment. I want to make the people around me happy. This is a tough task, but the fact is that anyone can do it, and I might as well be that "anyone".
4) To not neglect friends
Sometimes, I realise that I accidentally isolate certain friends when I stick to another clique too much. Big no no. Every friend is important. I will treasure every single one of them, as I know some of them treasure me too.
5) To learn how to cook healthy, exotic, cost effective dishes.
I want to be in the food industry. No secret. I need to start learning how to cook healthily, but cost effective. The main focus is to make the food still delicious after all that.
6) Not to annoy anyone
I realise I can really annoy people sometimes. Time to stop that!
7) To be less sensitive.
I recently got wind of the fact that I can be sensitive. I really do need to get that part of me into shape. I get affected by trivial matters, and I can really get upset due to it. Time to stop that~
8) To save up more money and not spend it quickly
I realise that it's not that I cannot save up money. I can do it, but I can also spend it pretty fast. I'm an adult now, and I should value money. With that said, I've got to limit my expenditures! Eat cheaper outside, and don't give excuses to spend!
Well, can I live up to my own expectations? Let's try.
Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE!!! Hope you all have a great 2011!
P.S.: I realised that my birthday this year will be 11/11/11, ahahahahaha...
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