How do I begin this post. A lot of feelings are being packed into me.
Mostly bad ones.
Ok, firstly, my eyelid got infected and swollen. Again. It started from the Friday before. Now, my right eye is almost entirely covered by the eyelid, and it makes it hard to see. That, and the fact it hurts like hell. And the fact I get laughed at because of it. :( Do you guys have any idea how much I had to put up with this eyelid? It hurts a lot, and laughing won't heal it any sooner.
Next. I think I'm starting to piss some people off. Not going to state names, but yeah. I just wish you would tell me directly.
I would have to bear with the hurt and embarrassment of course, but I hate being unfair to my friends. So if I have been a bastard in your eyes, say so. Disregard my feelings. Cos to me, your feelings > mine.
Also, one of my favourite shirt got ruined by the spicy sauce from last Fri's BBQ. The stain can't be washed off. Hooray.
All this shit and crap are happening at the same time. Even I have a tolerance limit to myself. I'm getting really mad with myself too. For being inconsiderate. Clumsy. Stupid. Idiotic.
It makes me wish that I could just disappear, along with my problems.
I want to take a good long sleep to forget all about my problems. But erasing what is on the surface won't completely clean it all off.
I don't want to ask for your empathy, but to please, forgive me.
What a fuck of a beginning of a year.
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