Ever get the feeling...?

First of all, Happy Chinese New Year Eve to all! =) Hope your ang pows are big and filled up for this year.

Have you ever get the feeling that you're being disliked or hated?

The feeling that you're being looked down on?

The feeling that your closest friends are whispering about you behind your back?

The feeling that they are indirectly talking about you at times?

And the feeling of being very tired of life, stressed out, wanting to cry yourself to sleep every night and feeling suicidal at times because all of the above are happening?

I do.

I would say I partially deserve it too, being who I am. I tried to change myself according to advices and criticism... but it seems that I can't change completely into what everybody wants me to be.

I can only be myself. Please, I implore you to understand that.

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My next post will be on the final DFP assessment & IA lab test on Thursday, Friday's sushi buffet outing and a little on my reunion dinner tonight.

Ciao.