Well, at least Friday's here...

Today was a busy day. Due to my panic mode being activated, I triggered a symptom I encounter during really stressed times: breathing difficulty. I'm starting to think if I am getting HBP. Need to exercise more already or I'll be dead by next year due to health problems. Training mode: begin. BTW, guys, I'm returning all loans and treats I owe to you guys in the coming week. My saving for the event isn't needed anymore.

Blogging at the source of 50% of my pressure right now: campus.

• RWP: Check
• DFP Programming: Check (sort of)
• MMS lab revision: Check
• Asking her out... : Check

It failed. Utterly. Totally. Disappointment is the least of my problems. I'm blaming myself for the lack of courage to ask her out earlier. If I had, maybe she would've accepted my invite...

I feel really empty right now. Dunno how to describe the emotion where sometime is building up in your chest and you want to let it out. Maybe it's the optimism I expressed that I can really cinch her. Too much overconfidence. 'Don't think, just do.' Hmm, well, now I need to think of how to face her the next time we meet.

Or the next plan to ask her out, which I could always embark on.

Optimism again? Or cluelessness? Somehow, both of them seemed linked...

But if I hadn't try, instead of disappointment, I probably would have felt something worse: regret. Now, I can bask in the fact that I actually did try. So I must thank Garry and Haikal for their advice.

And I must definitely try again some day... To have so much encouragement from my many friends, I can't give up here. Not now. But before that, I need to snap out of it first. C'mon, ZH...