Year end post!

I'm early, but what the heck. I'm gonna be outside tomorrow till it goes to 2011, so let's go with the flow and post now!

2010 had been a heck of a year. I had my fair shares of laughter and smiles. Many happy things occured. I met a lot of new friends, so close we could become family. I realised how the people around me care so much about me. I realised that family can be so warm. I revisited several old hobbies. I changed for the better.

But similarly, in contrast to bright sides, there are dark sides as well.

I also had my fair share of tears and frowns. I lost a family member. I lost a few friends, and... a few things happened.

May the next year be a better one, folks. From me, to you. :)

See you in the Year 2011!

Moving on

It's never easy.

After all, I'm an idiot who is so stubborn I can persevere on something for 8 long years, so yeah, it doesn't make things any easier for me.

During the past two days, I've done my fair share of thinking, pondering and gone through my share of depression. Every friend who saw me in that state had tried to cheer me up, give me advice, and told me to go forward. Seriously, I'm thankful to all of them. If not for all of you, I would have had to go through this alone. These past three days with all of them, shopping, skating and being reckless, chatting and hanging out... it helped me go through with it.

It's times like this, I realise how mentally weak I can be. And how useless I can be without my friends around. Like a certain someone said, I can be "socially deprived".

"Don't stay at your current state, move on.", "Time heals all wounds.", "Nobody said it would be easy to move on, but you have to do it eventually." etc. I've heard these lines so often this few days that they seem cliche. Seriously, it's like listening to broken records.

But nobody said I wasn't listening, or heeding the advices.

I'm going to try. Nobody said it was easy. I still have a pounding feeling in my chest whenever I think about it. I don't want to let myself remain like this. Stagnant, useless and clingy.

I'm moving on.

My feelings were real. I was being serious. But I will respect your decision.

Let's just be friends.

Torn

I am serious about it. But the other party obviously didn't see the matter in my way. It tore me apart.

Crying won't solve any problems. The best and only thing tears can do is to clean the dirt in your eyes.

Right now, I feel like I want to fall apart, just yell and cry and do whatever. Knives are poking at my heart every second I remember those words.

Call me emo/sensitive/conclusion jumper/pessimist or whatever you guys want to call me. The verdict has been cast.

I once again know how heartbreak can feel like.

Everyone gave me encouragement. I want to continue, but more and more, my target is travelling further and further.

I've been told not to mind any distances I distinct between the both of us, yet I was too late to overcome those emotions, and I was too hesitant, too cowardly and too indecisive. And worse of all, I make excuses for myself.

I can only blame myself for the tears falling from my eyes...

For my readers' benefit...

Yes folks, I'm still very much alive.... And boy, do I have tales to tell.

My last post revolves about my JLPTN4. Thanks for everyone who wished me good luck. I think I did fairly well.

F1 Simulator project. This project is like a pet project between me and my good bro, Garry. The project was going along fine (notice I didn't say 'well', or 'over the top'). JUST FINE. Till we noticed one thing. We had five supervisors to satisfy, each with different sets of ideas running through their heads.

So, how do you please 5 people?

I'm no pro at it, but Garry's been a real great partner. I'm sorry that I couldn't do much even at my best. Even now, when I see any of my 5 higher-ups, I roll my eyes and start to facepalm.

Sometimes, even tactical facepalms just can't do the job anymore

Anyway, like Jonathan say, it's live and let live. We gotta do what we gotta do, so let's go for it, and do my best.

Next up, is Cheryn's chalet.

I've been practising my skatiing for Pasir Ris Park (PSP), for the ground there is a bitch with its humps, slopes and long distances. But me and Haikal?

WE CONQUERED IT.

OMG, it felt great to urban skate the whole PSP. I never felt so much adrenaline pump through my body before. The thing about skating is this. The thrill of always going to fall down, but never falling down, feels great. It's just like reverse bungee, or roller coasters, but on a much smaller scale.

Oh yeah, I'd like to ride THIS THING one day!

Other from that, we relaxed at a breakwater, talking, napping, and listening to music. It felt really great. But like I always said, surrounded by great friends whom are like family, is always the best sensation ever. It doesn't matter where you are, or when.

You've really got to kill me to call me NOT to love this crew!

Other funny stuffs include Heng Khit's drunken stupor, but that's a story for another time!

My next target to conquer with my boots after PSP, is ECP! Hopefully, I shall be alive next time to tell the tale!

Now's time for some sleep. =)

JLPTN4

JLPTN4 is tomorrow morning. Wish me luck.

I really hope I can hit my minimum target! =)

Good luck to all of you taking MSTs!

Wrathful

I feel recently that my level to handle stress has been at a low. I get angry easily.

Work:
MDC has been okay at the start, but with the F1 project underway... me and Garry has been coughing blood. Working out ergonomics of car and sitting positions makes me really appreciate car-makers out there. They're good at their jobs, and whenever I sit in a car next time, I will definitely thank them for all their hard work. It doesn't help that I have an unfriendly supervisor who picks on me and my teammates everyday. His presence just purely pisses me off.

Health:
I haven't been in good health lately. Caught a flu, and accidentally spread it to Garry. Sorry about that, bro. In addition to that, my body's been really heaty lately. Due to my part time job, I've also been skipping dinners. Don't tell me it's unhealthy. I know, but time is not on my side. Walked through the rain a couple of times too, due to the bad weather.

Only healthy thing I've been doing is skating. Whenever I feel like I am in a bad mood, I power skate because the adrenaline of going fast and fighting the danger of falling down and injuring myself seriously takes things off my mind.

Feelings:
Recently, I've got this thing for this girl. I don't know why. I fell in love with her at first sight.

Guys, you might think this is tiresome, so ignore this part if you don't like to read it.

Around her, I get a little shy, lose appetite, stutter and get into accidents. I miss her on days I don't see her. People around me make fun of me and her, but I don't mind.

I feel like she is very important to me. I've been given advice and help, but to be honest, I blame myself for being a natural coward. I want to make her happy.

I'm afraid that we might not even end up friends if she were to know my feelings for her. It wouldn't just affect me. It would affect all the friends around us. And I'm scared.

That fears gives me stress, which makes me angrier at myself for not being able to arrive at solutions...

I need some off time.

Skating E>

An old sport I had once indulged, enjoy and immersed myself in 2 years ago, skating is back within my list of hobbies. An act of balancing yourself and moving on wheels, skating teaches everyone valuable and simple lessons in everyday life: to pick up yourself after you fall, and move forward again.

My boots are a delicious pair of Seba High Deluxe. Want it? I saved up really hard for it back then two years ago. Letting them collect dust was a heart-wrecking decision, even to me now.

Feels good after seasoning it, haha, but that's just expensive boots for you. I sorta permanently lent my old Rollerblade boots to Haikal, and he's like my skating mate now.

Every Saturday and Sunday, you will now probably see a certain familiar horizontally inclined guy gliding around Choa Chu Kang/Yew Tee. I'm having weekend sessions with Haikal, and other skating pals include Suxann, Heng Khit and Hui Qi. Our awesome eastsider, Ernthechamp, graciously cycled all the way from Tampines to Choa Chu Kang. Ern, we still think you are FTW.

The enthusiasm I had 2 years ago is back, baby. Getting the dust off my boots were a pain at first, but after getting used to moving with skates again, I just can't wait to put them on everyday and become even better on them. Recovering the turning tricks, Cross-Over and Parallel Turn was first. Now, I'm still trying to perfect T-Braking, and maybe eventually the amazing skill of skating backwards and basic slalom tricks (slides are just not my thing).

Eventually, I just really hope that more friends will join us with our weekend skating sessions. I'm just going to chiong all I can. I don't mind falling down anymore because the first thing I did when I went back to skating was balance and the ability to break my fall. =)

I'm going to make myself better on wheels! It's now a passion and hobby, much like Yu-Gi-Oh!, but cheaper and fitter. Guys, let's move! =D

Escapade~

It's like more than one weeks since the awesome event started and ended, and in other words, yes, I am freaking slow. So sue me if you will. :)

Escapade 2010. It was a day I've been looking forward to back then. Escapade 2009 was an event full of great memories, with us making new friends back then, who had formed unbreakable bonds with us right now. I will not deny that I expect that this year's Escapade was expected to be greater than last year's.

I was in Inspira last year, and this year, I've been chosen to be in Igni, the new monster group. My partner this year is Aaron, who in his own right, is an awesome buddy.

4pm. Everyone gathered at SPCC, eating their dinner. We chatted, joked, took photos, cheered. After that, we got to work. All the 11 and 12 leaders were assigned to entertain the people in the queue, which we did. My ideas then were kinda lame though.

After a very long while, we finally got our monsters. A very rushed dinner happened, then we rushed to see the performance at the fanfare. We got comedians and dancers, which were great, in my opinion. Fanfare ended shortly, and we moved on to KMKU.

KMKU: Knowing Me, Knowing You, is our ice breaker session. We engaged in games, cheers and a "pageant" contest. It went considerably well.

After KMKU, the Igni Monsters were led to "The Temple of Igni", where they took a hippo bus to get answers to riddles to free the Volcano Monster (WE'RE A VOLCANO, FOLKS). Due to misinformation on our OM's part, we leaders were left at the bus stop, where we had toilet breaks and a little rest. My voice started to sound weird already then.

Their hippo bus ride ended, and they alighted to be led to a room where we had to do a FREE IGNI DANCE! (For more info, watch Alvin's video of Try performing that awesome dance). This is a tricky and funny dance meant to be etched within our minds probably for the rest of our lives. O_O

Mission accomplished! Igni was freed! Next was the mountain monster, Inspira's territory! We went into the library and played Snakes and Ladders in life size. It was fun, with me making fun of the people getting forfeits every chance I got. :P

Inspiration obtained, the next stop was to InnoV, the Village of Inno, the sea monster. The Igni monsters were shown performances and new techs made by our lecturers and students. I still like that evil helicopter. It's evilllll.

The last location was Imagi's, the forest monster's territory, at Colours. A band would sing for them under a very nice atmosphere, and the monsters were given quizzes in which they would win free movie tickets.

Now, all 4 hallmarks have been visited, the main event of the night comes: The gig! But supper was before that, which was great. I loved the food. <3

Now, the gig. This is where monsters and leaders alike let wild their passions by dancing and shaking their booties. Us ACERs show sides of ourselves that most others have probably never thought of seeing in our everyday life. It was fun last year, and still is fun this year. :)

The gig ended, and we went to the final event, the Sunrise Surprise. Orchestrated by SMA, the seagoers showed us how to party all the way into the morning. The event was ended by dodgeball, in which everybody was to take a ball home, with their thoughts written on permanent marker on the balls. Breakfast came after that event, and we all went home to our bed, who sworn to serve us well. :)

Escapade this year was great, ACERs! It's my last event in SP, so yeah, I'm a little sad about it. But the bonds and friendship accumulated will definitely never be forgotten. ACERs, rock on! :D

Super sweet 19th~

The day started out like any other, but ended up unlike any other day I've ever experienced before.

11/11/2010 is the best day of my life for the past 19 years. Thanks, everyone who celebrated for me. ACERs, thanks for the celebration! It felt strange to have 50+ people singing for you, but still. :)

To the non-ACER friends, thanks for the gifts and wishes! I deeply appreciate ALL of it!

This is the best birthday of my life! :D

Some just for fun statistics of the day!

First person this year to wish me on the day itself: Pey Ling
Final person this year to wish me on the day itself: Sarah (Joy 6)

Best gift: Headphones from my mother and sisters!
Worse gift: Steve's photograph
Funniest gift: Zack's super trophy

FYI Fact: First surprise birthday celebration in my life

I'll post up pictures when Gibs uploads them! :) But for now, the gifts of 2010! And my "lucky noodles" haha!

 My mother's mee sua? THE BEST.

My beautiful cake!

Main gifts this year! :D

Thanks a lot, folks! I love you all! :D

Friends

It's always always cool to hang out with friends. No matter for what, when it is, and who it is.

Yesterday, 10 of us trudged down The Cathay to watch The Social Network. The movie taught me how friends can turn into enemies, and how words cannot be taken back. Meaningful. The main character ended up rich and famous, but apparently friendless. Like his lawyer said, "he's not an asshole, but he's trying too hard to be one".

Popeyes was awesome, but the chicken was small! We chatted, laughed, the usual. I enjoy company with all of them, chatting about random stuff out of nowhere.

Self-cannibalism FTW. =P

Outings are one thing, but the friends you have in class with you? They're also awesome, because they literally share hardship with you. I can't help but feel awesome with friends at MDC, despite working. It is a problem when we get mental blocks, though. Engineers need creativity.

And ACER trainings. I love em. Hanging out with everyone at night, joking around and stuff. After that, it's a huge group taking train home together. Who doesn't love that sort of company?

Work. I'm getting along with the colleagues. KY's still an asshole, but he's an awesome asshole LOL. Sounds wrong, but I'm lazy to change it, so I won't.

Escapade is coming, yo. Can't wait. =) I need sleep. I'm getting way too exhausted.

A Brief idea...?

This few days past, I've been cooking a few different recipes. I really do enjoy cooking. I've been in love with it ever since I touched the stove while I was 11.

The wonders you can make with ingredients are limitless. To me, food is an art form. But of course, they must be healthy, delicious, satisfying. I've always liked to study up on recipes, be able to cook more dishes.

Today my mother told me something interesting, as an advice.

"Why don't you go into the food industry if you like it so much?"

I pondered about it. CK gave me the same advice when we chatted and I said I liked cooking a lot.

I supposed I was afraid, to mix pleasure with work. Cooking, in the industry meant that your service and skills need to be speedy and precise. And, in the food industry, there is no room for mistake, or it'll be waste of time, skills and resources if the customer rejects your food. Most importantly, your reputation will go kaput.

But to end without trying is pathetic. Could this be the beginning of my dream? The prospects are exciting... I'll do my best and see how it goes!

Takers

Since I've got two free Cathay movie vouchers back then, a gang of us went to The Cathay to watch a movie. Wanted to watch comedy flicks, but they were all out of seats, so we had no choice but to take what was available. We watched "Takers".

This movie is basically about a bunch of robbers who got saboed by their old brother who felt betrayed as he was caught and sent to prison with his girlfriend snatched away by his bro. The ending was non-conclusive, so I felt like it was a waste of 2 hours of my time. Good thing it was free. It was a bullshit movie.

What's a point of a story if you don't give it a conclusion? At least you might wanna give it an exciting cliffhanger. But it basically sucked in the end lol.

2/10. If I could, I would throw rotten tomatoes at the screen.

Dreams (2)/Masks and Friendships/Matters of the heart

Exhausted, but I shall wait till my hair is dry before hitting the sack.


This few days, as "research", I asked around people about dreams, and if they had them. Everybody gave me the same advice. To slowly search, as I still had 2 1/2 years to think out my options. But  it feels like I'm missing an organ. Because having a dream leads to having ambitions, while ambitions leads to action. Action ensures that you will one day build your own road.


I haven't even got the tar ready. How do I build it up, my road to the future?


I will go on looking, for it, so that I can go on. Everyday I am living in now seems so meaningless without a goal. I feel like a dead man inside. 


I need to be revived.


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You know that you are pretty much the talk of the town when you just say some random stuffs about person A, and person B assumes you are talking about him/her.


For eg, on FB, yesterday, a certain someone really really pissed me off. Shall not mention names here. Don't worry, it's not any ACER. It's... a certain someone else.


So I wrote on FB as my profile message: "Don't assume. You don't know me at all."


Verena replied, "i love how word spread so fast, it is really amusing to me. hahahhahahha"


I'll tell you now I have no idea what she's talking about. Guilty conscience much? It's natural for people to talk about people behind their backs. I'd be lying if I say I am neither curious nor hurt, but it happens to everyone. I'm used to the talking behind another party's back, but I'll never get used to the hurt. I guess I might have a delicate heart.


Trying too hard to be a friend can be a bad thing sometimes too. I have that weakness, from what some had told me.


But it's like I said. Don't assume. I've been wearing a mask because if I don't, I might not be accepted by the general public. Very little people has had the privilege to see the face behind the mask. Same goes for everybody, doesn't it. Everyone wears a mask for self preservation.


I want to be honest to myself for once you know, just to see if friendship can withstand truth. But from what I know, friendship is like glass. It breaks easily unless both parties treat it with delicate care. Truth is tough. That's how it is.

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So that's how screwed up my life is right now. A guy who has no dreams and goals to speak of and has social stress to deal with. Let's comfort myself by telling myself it could be worse.

Can I be true to myself and be accepted?

Dreams?

I'm nearing graduation from Polytechnic in one measly semester. 2 1/2 years sure have passed by fast. All the great friends and memories and the not so good ones, will always be a valuable part in my heart. My World, My SP. =)

So what do I want to do after Poly?

No, I'm not talking about NS. I'm talking even further ahead, into a future I still have yet to explore. What do I want to do? What do I want to advance in? What exactly are my dreams?

Which brings us to the subject of dreams.

I've seen Jonathan and Garry, both deciding on their paths for the future, and strive for me. Compared to them I guess I'm pathetic. Garry's decided to embark on his path to designing, Jonathan's got a dream to excel in psychology. Even Kai Yang, has a future of teaching IT and Japanese in the future. Compared to them, I have no prospects.

Pathetic.

You know, for dreams, we sure have to be realistic about them. Dreams and realism are opposites, but the irony is that we have to dream realistically. For example, I can't say that I want to be a multi-billionaire and be surrounded by beautiful woman by the age of 20. That's pure unrealistic and near impossible. People need to have dreams which they can invoke by themselves, through the process of hard work, sweat, blood and tears.

So what dream do I have? None. And that's why I say I'm pathetic. I'm sure many agree. I don't know what lies ahead of me in the future, nor have I seen that far. I can't dream big, and therefore I'm pathetic. Successful people has to dream big.

Engineering is a skill I picked up to ensure my survival. It's to make sure I can at least be able to support myself in the future. But engineering is not what I want. It's supposed to be my last resort. What do I want? Honestly, truthfully, I need to touch my heart and ask myself.

"I don't know."

Various people often told me before, "You sure don't know about a lot of things, do you?" I'm ashamed of that part of me, but it is true. I really don't know a lot. Seriously, what have I being doing for my past 19 fucking years? I'm disappointed. I don't even know my dream. I don't even have that something that everybody has within of them.

When we're were young, innocent, naive, even, we can think up of "dreams" everyday.

"I want to be a firefighter! A policeman! An illegal bookie!" (Ok wait a minute, that last one was a wee off, but...)

We were so full of hope, wanting to embrace the world. Now as 20 draws near in another year, I realise that as we grow up, not all those dreams can be fulfilled. Like I said, we are people who needs to dream realistically. I wish I can go back to those days, where I can rant about what I want to be in the future.

I wish.

Hey, me, give me a good dream. :')

School starts

Being back to school is always sudden. But a case of semester blues hits me while I was in the lab of my TF project. And also, being a Monday sucks again.

Guess things can't be helped. Seeing some classmates obviously bring back pleasant memories. Friends are always cool. =) 

This is going to be one hell of a semester. Everybody in my sector will have to work from 9am-6pm everyday, where punctuality is a key part of our marks.. >_<

Now, with school restarting, a key part of what I am looking forward to is Escapade. Inspira 2009 rocked the socks off everything, haha. I am so looking forward to this year's Escapade again.

Hope I can take leave for the training dates. I'm having trouble for that. Bosses, please be easy on meeee...

Time will be packed for me at the time being. Monday: 6pm go home, Tuesday: 10+pm go home, Wednesday: 6pm go home, Thursday: 10+pm go home, Friday: 10+pm go home, Saturday: Work during morning/Escapade training/Escapade and Sunday: Japanese class at Ikoma in the morning.

Where's leisure gone to, lol? 

Countdown of Despair

I anticipate. I fear. I despair.

Exam results will be out, 11:30am today. 10 hours plus to go.

Please let my SC and PLC go well. >< I do not wish to repeat module.

This is what post-exam is like. The fear can't be put into words. Butterflies in my stomach now.

Good luck, everyone.

Summary

Oh boy, past few days had been so out of the world. Time passes by fast, no? 2nd week of the holidays are gone just like that. Monday had been the only day I really did nothing. Tuesday to today? I've been going out everyday.

Tuesday was my first day of work. Meeting up with Leslie and KY was awesome. Sup bros, long time no see. KY adapted a rock star hairstyle, which he'll need to dye back to black soon for our enlistment photo. First day of work was cool, with my job training going well. So yeah, I'm an assistant for Kumon now. Don't try to sabotage me by visiting my workplace! Dinner with them was cool stuff. We had a lot to say. I participated in a shuttle run training to the bus stop with Leslie after such a reunion. Hooray.

So... Wednesday was my last class for Japanese Intermediate! I got my certificate for completing the course, hehe. It's a little sad that my final lesson at Intermediate couldn't be under my current Sensei, who is moving back to Japan. So now, I'm moving to Sunday classes, morning. It's taken up by my former Sensei, so adapting shouldn't be a problem. =)

Thursday, I went to Felix's house's gym. Freaking awesome, training in an empty gym, with an empty swimming pool to use after that. Just that it had to rain. :\ So I got into the pool for like... 5 minutes? Bullshit. I'll ask Fel if I can go again next week.

Today today today... me, Zack and Haikal went to Big Splash in Chinese Garden. Being to the pool always is fun, but it spent a lot of our energies. Well, this is the good thing about youth. It's something you need to waste away. Asked a few people to go before, but all were busy and saying about how they don't want to show off their fats, so well, the three of us decided to go by ourselves. Who says you can't have fun with just 3? Bullshit! We had tons of fun. Such is the awesomeness of brotherhood. Who cares about ignored messages and refusal to participate. It's because it's all guys that we can talk about stuffs we usually don't say outside.

Tomorrow will be a day dedicated to card games. I should sleep more. Yes I should. =) I need to keep up the energy!

I'm so looking forward to the 9th Oct. ACERs! You guys should look forward to that day too!

Lalala~

WHOA! This blog was almost on the verge of dying. Good thing I saved it (given the fact I almost killed it myself). For the very loyal few who had been following, sorry! I had been too lazy, I guess. There'll be no rewards nor reimbursement though.

Today, I shall talk about exams.

Mine had been over two weeks ago, but in my opinion, the nerve wrecking moment is when it's over. You heard me, folks.

Pre-exam! This is the period where those who had since long been prepared will strut confidently, already familiar with everything. It is also the period in which those who are NOT prepared will pull out their hairs trying to figure out the solution to the certain problem. (Curse the select few lecturers who do not give solutions). During this time, past-year papers are examined and analysed, while done with much care and desperation.

During the exams itself, when a familiar question pops up, the first thing everybody feels is confidence. The opposite happens when a not so familiar question pop up too. Those who are really afraid will then attempt to calculate how many marks they are able to get, hoping for a mere pass even with the last minute cramming they had staked their lives on.

And now, post-exam. At first, due to the exams done, you'll have fun for a bit. But that's only the beginning.

Anxiety. Nerves. Stress. Fear. Those emotions run through everybody as the fateful day approaches. Some will wonder: "Will I get an 'A/B'?", while others wonder: "Will I pass?". Truly, the experience of post-exam stress can push a person to their most desperate, because of one simple reason.

"What matters is the result." - Lelouch from Code Geass.

Yes, that is the reason. Even if the exams have ended, everyone wants to, but is afraid to know how well/badly they had done. I feel a lot that way too. 

And so, here I sit, waiting for the 4th October to approach me, slowly but steadily.

Lalala~

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Ever since the start of the holidays, my first week had been dedicated to good old ACERs. The Parents' Forum event was a success. For me, anyway. I just love the parents. They're really awesome, patient, and kind with us.

And I got a job, thanks to my old friend, KY. I'll be working as a receptionist at Kumon, so essentially, it's the same as being an ACER, but I get paid. 

I actually should be in my Japanese class tomorrow evening, but I'm postponing it in favour of my job training. :\ Even though it's my Tuesday's teacher's last lesson with this current class. Sumimasen, Sensei. Shigoto desu kara... I know she might have wanted to give me the Ikoma cert herself, but I have no choice but to deny her that pleasure... I'll be taking the promotion test on Wednesday.

Things have quieten down lately. It's about to get busy again. I'll be back to update, so be here to read up! ;)

Updates

It's the 7th month in the Lunar Calender now. Hungry Ghost Festival. Well, I bet I could be hungrier than them, but.. I'm not going to take my chances. :) The only ghost I think which have been possessing me is the Ghost of Procrastination and the Ghost of Laziness. Can someone exorcise them for me?

Been going home really late recently, although this is a period in which I am NOT supposed to go home late. I, for the first time, actually missed the last train yesterday. I swear, teens like us have got to take note of the time. Anyway, no more outings for now till assignments/exams revisions are finished.

Went to eat sushi with Haikal and the others yesterday. Haikal invited everybody, and for the first time, I feel glad that I wasn't the one who had to do the invitations. Sorry I had to push the task to you, Haikal. But I got to admit that he has way much more success than me. He actually manage to get the digits of people to 10.

Zack, CK and Cheryn came later because of certain reasons. So the the other 7 of us ate at Hei Sushi for a 90 minute buffet. Don't have their Udon. I greatly recommend you do not eat it.

Culprits of the night: Cheryn, me, Sen Rong, me, Zack, me, Heng Khit, me, Zainol, me, Suxann, me, Ern, me, Haikal and me

And for the first time, we had Suxann with us for an outing! Welcome to the ACER clique. :)

It's been awhile since I chionged in an arcade. Table Hockey was as awesome as I remember it, but smaller. I vaguely remember that Jurong East's arcade used to have a hugeass table for the game when I was but a wee lad. We won a lot of coupons (thanks to Suxann's Spongebob jumping, Haikal, Heng Khit and my hammer the dog). Ern won all of us at Daytona racing.

And we traded it for a- wait for it- an EYEBALL.

Haikal took home the prize. When we left the arcade, we were like WTF WE MISSED THE LAST TRAIN.  Hailed a cab with Heng Khit and Suxann, and we made our way to Yew Tee, back to our homes.

Got to say, this is one of the most fun outing I've been to in quite a while. Maybe it's because I am not the one organising it. I always get pang sehed. ALWAYS.

Well, hope for the next awesome outing, maybe after the exams! :)

Fun times, sad times

Tuesday was what I could usually call a blast. Especially when it's the first official day of the school holidays (since Monday was a public holiday). The ACER gang gathered at Farrer Park and we went to eat. Essentially it was Bachelor's night out, haha. Haikal, Heng Khit, Zack and I. The 4 Musketeers hung out, had our dinner and went to the arcade.

Been awhile since I played table hockey, I got thrashed by Haikal (albeit narrowly). Ee Seuu came when Zack had to leave, so we hung out and ate yogurt at Yoguru's. Expensive, but it was well worth it because it was damn delicious, and when you eat with friends you hold dear, anything tastes good.

Sat down, chatted about stuff. Haikal 'assaulted' Ee Seuu, Heng Khit 'assaulted' Ee Seuu, Ee Seuu 'assaulted' Heng Khit and Haikal back (and they lived happily ever after) while I watched. :D Entertaining.

We went home late, despite it being the first day of the Seventh Month. >< Don't learn this from us, kids. :P

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Wednesday: the day of the Northland road show. Lead Suxann, Gregory and Xin Yi there. We did fairly well. We finished distributing the brochures! Woohoo!

Then me and Suxann met up with Heng Khit and Cheryn for dinner at Bugis for steamboat, eating yogurt (again) while waiting for them. I was pang sehed (again) by people whom I shall not name for their privacy. Suxann's bf came along, and he's a great guy. Turn out we read the same mangas and stuff.

When we decided to go home, we found out that 4 of us live in Yew Tee. Quite a pleasant surprise. Poor Cheryn had to leave at Gombak. :P

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Sorry I haven't been updating. A lot of stuff cropped up and I had to deal with them for the past three weeks. For those reading, thanks!

Rejection: Opinions?

Hi, welcome to Monday. Welcome to hell.

For most of us, Monday spells out back-to-school/work. And as a result, we all get the thing known as Monday blues. Suck it up. You'll be enduring it till you are at least 65.

Despite promises to myself, I have yet to think up of a concept for my Digital Imaging assignment. I believe that I'll have to find something really interesting to photograph to get good grades. Any good ideas, anyone? 

The other day, Zack had this really interesting Facebook profile message, which is common, but quite true. "The most hated word of the dictionary: no". 

I am inclined to agree to that statement. The word "no" often is linked to rejection, or turning down of requests. I myself have been hurt countless times by this very word, and might have hurt countless people by this very word as well.

Thing is, rejection is never sweet. No matter how much you "get used" to it, it's always painful, bitter and heartbreaking. My past jobs had been 1) A door-to-door surveyor 2) SIM card salesman. All these job, especially the surveyor one, had involved me getting brutally rejected, turned down and door slammed at some point of time. It hurts a lot, but I had to swallow my pride and get my job done.

Case study: I had been commissioned by Organiser to invite people for events. Person A told me "Nope.", Person B doesn't reply, Person C goes "Yes, yes, yes" all the way and "No" at the last minute. 

If this happens, how would you feel? I felt really hurt. At least, try to consider my feelings. I had looked forward to seeing everyone, hope was given, but in the end, disappointment awaits. 

And that is why I decide not to help to be someone who gives out invitations. From now on, I shall quietly wait for invitations. At least I won't get hurt.

I myself had been guilty for the same sin, and I blame myself for disappointing people. I now know how they feel. >_<

P.S.: I am not blaming anybody in particular. It's because I treat you people as REALLY REALLY GREAT friends that I felt so disappointed. :/ Sorry if it accidentally offends you. I can be dense sometimes.

My two cents worth of comments. Gonna go sleep early. Lab test tomorrow.

Ciao, folks. :]

R.I.P. ; Noob NTSS

Today, on my way to school in the morning, a very ghastly scene greeted me. A cat, with its brains busted out of its skull, and had its carcass dragged by unknown forces, laid on the tar road while I was walking to the bus stop. Its blood surrounded a huge portion of the road.

I am no Ee Seuu or Nadiah, but hey, I think that basic love for animals should at least be there. This is a case of murder. No, don't tell me that as long as it is not human, the driver IS guilty.

This is clearly a case of reckless driving and manslaughter (catslaughter, meow?). The driver who did it is worse than a beast. Because he clearly didn't feel remorse. He just wants to shirk responsibility.

The least he could have done was call a hotline and gotten someone to give the cat a peaceful cremation/burial. But no... he had to leave it there, for OTHER DRIVERS to run their cars through the carcass and let it be dragged again and again across the road. Even a cat deserves respect people.

For all we know, the cat might have been saved if the driver took action. He didn't and a life departed us all. What a heartless driver.

R.I.P., cat. May God bless your soul.

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And as expected, another incident concerning my secondary school surfaced on STOMP.

For more info: Teacher in class, yet student whacks and whacks classmate's head with broomstick

I've always hated New Town. Through my four years in there, I'm like the boy in the picture who gets hit by the broomsticks. It's bullies like those that never give some of us a peaceful way to live our lives.

My old school's discipline has never been top notch. In a place like that, some people could never be able to live through a nice four years with plenty of good memories. That school should be closed down, period.

I wouldn't have put it past myself to survive secondary school if not for a few true friends and kind souls who supported me through the 4 years. Heck, I even contemplated suicide while in Secondary School before (who hasn't? You're lying if you say no.) due to the hardship certain people (who I am tempted to name and disgrace and step on) has inflicted on me.

I will laugh at the person, whom I guess will be publicly caned this week by our ex-discipline master, John Lim. The bullies deserve it.

Like I said, New Town is full of crap. It's 95% bullshit and 5% good things.

Poly is much better. Thank God for the friends I have now. =)

Enough about my thoughts, folks. It's time to get some sleep. Ciao.

God Eater

Today, I shall do you PSP players a service and recommend a great game to you guys: God Eater.

I've been playing it and really? I'm getting a little hooked to it. I'll blame Ern and Garry for it, haha. They were like popping their eyes out and saying PLAY GOD EATER. Jokes aside, this game is especially fun in multi-player mode with your khakis. So just go play it already. You're already salivating, aren't you?

Like fantasy? Monster Hunter? This is the game for you. I've never touched Monster Hunter (I know! Right?), but this game is all about getting potions and upgrading your weapons, whacking and shooting at giant monsters, so it's also sort of like Power Rangers, just without so much latex and giant robots, and the girls look so much hotter. You know you want it. Say yes.

GOD EATER AWESUMZZZ OPENING THEME

The opening theme and ending theme sung by the Chinese-Tibetan singer, alan, is awesome. I demand you guys to listen to this song, because I said so. Don't want to? Ask me nicely to ask you nicely to watch it

Anytime you guys want to play multi-player with us guys, feel free to ask. I'm having trouble clearing rank 4 cos I'm a noob at this game. ><

Troubles, burdens, worries and... sometimes, a little smile that makes the previous looks dumb. :)

Talking about troubles and stuff. Week 14 is PLC lab test, Week 16 is PLC common test 2 and GEMs collage submission date. No ideas yet for the GEMs assignment. It's just a major bore to me anyway, that GEMs. -.- PLC mini project and PED PBL... So many assignments. Can I cope? Let's try to do my best. ><

I should set aside next week and chiong for the assignments. Anwar say not meeting for the coming week for YGO, so can set aside more time. Need to prioritize my work too, or it'll really pile up and kill me all at the same time.

So, my self planned schedule for this week:
Monday evening: GEMs assignment
Tue evening: PED?
Wednesday morning - noon: PLC mini-project
Thursday evening: PLC mini-project
Friday evening: A bit of relaxation

Now all I have to do is follow it.

BTW, saw this really funny picture. Feel like I have to share it with you guys.

If you guys don't get it, you're either too innocent, or naive. If you can get it... well, then you're about as evil, or worse than me. xD

Well, I'll do my promised "column writer post" someday. Hopefully it'll be about no procrastinating ahaha. 

Ciao.

Thoughts

Been kinda thinking, thinking and thinking about stuff recently. Ern would probably say : "Why think so much? Make your hair grow whiter only." Can't help it, I guess. It's in the blood.

Monday lessons are... boring. I dunno. Maybe it's because of the fact that, well, it is Monday. Hate my GEMs. It's a waste of time.

Saturday went down to see Mad cosplay as Yui from K-ON. She was awesome. Too bad I forgot to take a picture with her. She looked great.

Been reading blogposts around, and I dunno, I feel like my posts are dull? Haha. People like Garry, is like, wow, always having interesting blogposts. Maybe I should adopt his "column writer" style and write some thoughts of random subjects sometimes. He's pretty awesome when it comes to stuff like that.

I need more colour in my life. Been too dull and too systematic easily. Where is the me of old who would break through that sort of dull process? Geez, I thought I like to make life interesting. Need to find some new stuff to do.

Met up with the YGO gang and played cards with them. It turned sorta crazy, haha, when we win in the most interesting of ways. Unexpected stuff blows people's minds away.

Realise that I've been spamming God Eater on PSP recently. That game is like damn shiok sia haha. Garry and Ern like influence me now become like some junkie.

K la, enough about me. Tell me something about YOU. My chatbox is getting very rusty. Barely anyone's using it.

Ciao. ;)

2/7/2010 Legend of Ip Man outing!

Basically, we went to watch the movie today at GV Tiong Bahru, Legend of Ip Man. It was an okay movie, cool and all. Culprits of the day? Ern, Steve, Haikal, Zack, Heng Khit, Cheryn and of course, yours truly. =)

^Thanks to Jonathan Soon for taking the picture!

Hung out after the movie playing cards at BK, haha. Played Truth or Dare and we had some funny stuff happened. :P

And wosh! We got this lucky draw card we just decided to go try out for fun. Turns out we actually "accidentally" won a cruise for two on a cruise! Not bad right! Today productive! 

^People who tapped this thing out: Zack, Cheryn and me

It was fun, gang. Let's hang out next time again. =)

Ciao, all! ^_^V

Duty: Day 2

Shagged. The only word that can run through my tired brain right now. I think it's due to my lack of sleep and duty. :/

Second day of duty was fine. Quota barely reached today, but I was disappointed with my own performance because I did better yesterday. Hung out with Ben and his Regent Sec juniors and chatted after duty, then took train with them and went home. Guys at duty, you were awesome. =)

I want to be like Uncle Francis, haha. That confidence, initiative, charisma and speaking skills. I've got a lot to learn from him, and a long way to go before becoming someone like him. ><

CSW presentation today went fine. Partnered with Mon.

Tomorrow got movie outing, but like didn't manage to get much people, because most of them can't make it. Geez, I think I suck at organising outings like this. Good thing got Cheryn to help me... again. She's a great friend, that girl. =] Hope tomorrow's outing goes well. ><

I think I'm going to go to bed... Air-con spoilt. Sian, hope I can fall asleep tonight, my room's super warm... Tomorrow's Friday, finally.

Thanks for being my friends.

Sometimes, the people you least expect will raise your spirits, with the right intentions, with the best of who they are. It happens. Yesterday, I was in such low spirits that I could just contemplate a thousand ways to torture myself. Then, a few kind souls tried with the best of their intentions said a few things to try cheer me up. And one of them accompanied with for one hour and talked to me to help solve my problems. Sometimes, people like them, just makes me feel a lot better. Thank you, for being my friends.

Whew, today was supposed to be my first day off after school reopens. But I went back to help as an ACER for the SP Buddy Programme for the DPA talk for secondary school students.

Geez, it sure was exhausting, but fun. Got to meet a lot of people, and the guys there helping out? All cool people. =)

I'm helping out again tomorrow! Got LOA, and SP Buddy shirt limited edition. Only me and Haikal have it, and it's not been mass released anymore. I guess having it has its perks. -.- But today hitting quota for number of registrations with Haikal feels awesome haha.

Tomorrow got my stupid CSW telephone skills thingy. Geez, have to weat shirt and tie and leather shoes. Troublesome. ><

Trying to make movie outing on Friday, but not so successful. A lot of people cannot make it. I guess I just always pick the wrong time. :/

Ok guys, so much for updates. Ciao.

Holidays almost all gone...

Well, I have barely 11 hours left to my next class. =X About 7 hours will be dedicated to sleeping. Dang, the holidays really flew by so fast. I didn't even feel like I had enough fun or chilling out for the 2 weeks, except for the chalet/camp.

Maybe school reopen already ask the ACER peeps for movie outings. Keep the bonds strong, peeps!

My last day of holidays have been wasted at home mopping the floors and doing my laundry. FML. I want to do something fun! Something energy spending! And all that. =X

Geez, holiday homework of 2 SC practical reports still not done yet. Time to chiong... eventually. Due on Tuesday.

8am-5pm again. I hate my time-table.... Haizzzz... Wednesday, come quickly! At least got a break, but got the CSW assignment also... Damn... such a rushed term and holiday. 3rd Year really is just flashing by. ><

Cya all at school, people...

Updates for the week :]

Didn't do much for the week! Except for... these.

Tuesday went to the Robocup Junior Party to look for the Hong Kong participants from Macau. No luck finding them at all. But me, Haikal and Zi Xiang enjoyed the party at the Science Centre though. I feel guilty cos I didn't get to do my job like I should :/

Wednesday was raining like there would be no tomorrow. Was supposed to go to City Hall with Haikal to support the teams, but the rain was so bad the front of my house had high water level. The mud swept out to the driveway and well, a lot of things happened, so we went on Thursday.

Shida and Suxann were on duty. Heng Khit was there too as a crew member, and Sen Rong came along. The few of us sat down, chatted and joked about, before they closed shop and we went for Haagen Dazs ice cream with our one for one coupon. Found out Heng Khit and Suxann also live in Yew Tee, haha! Next time got event got people take train home with me liao. :]

Friday was the day of the goody bag packing job. We (Aaron, Heng Khit, Haikal, Shida, Verena and me) were the "pamphlet team", so we sat down on hard ground and started packing stuff. At the end of the day, we all got sore backs, paper cuts and sore muscles. We barely caught the last trains back home in the end, haha... It was really tiring, but interesting, and the money was good. Best of all is that the 6 of us managed to bond a lot throughout the 12 hours. =)

Jialat, my Japanese class timeslot might be cancelled sia. If cancelled I think worst case scenario I'll take Wednesday night classes. Will be alone... but at least I get my weekends back and use the weekdays fully for work. But best is that it doesn't get cancelled. I've gotten attached to my class of 3 people and 1 teacher.

Ok that is all after a summary. =] School is reopening! >< See you all, folks! It was a good holiday while it lasted.

Oh yeah, today is Heng Khit's birthday! Happy Birthday, man! =)

New Camp?

ACER Camp 1: Over.

Camp 2 petition is beginning LOL.

Turns out all of us had so much fun the same idea stuck on our heads: To have a second camp. But the assignment of staffs will be different. The camp chief will be different. It's time to pass the torch, folks.

I don't mind. It was one of the most fun thing I attended. So seniors, want it? Discuss about it. Tell Zac or Zack that you're interested in it. Michelle'll know soon.

I'm still coughing like a madman.

Tomorrow Science Centre to attend some stuff for Robocup at 6:30pm. Gosh, I'm nervous about meeting the foreign participants. O_O

I need more rest. My lungs will get infected soon if I don't let it rest more. Been drinking cough syrups. Hope it works.

Ciao all, I have nothing much interesting to update.

SP ACER Junior Training Camp

3 days, 2 nights. That's the amount of time that passed us in a flash. Yet those days, those memories, are something I will not easily forget. One of my best moments of my final year in SP.

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Day 1
Sen Rong, Haikal, Cheryn, Ee Seuu, Michelle and I met up at IMM, Giant to started to get our supplies. Haikal and I got a little behind time while shopping. Michelle and the two of us then went to SP to collect the supplies, before heading to the chalet, aloha Changi Yacht Club B, itself.

Once there, we settled into full work mode. Met Heng Khit, Aaron, Verena and Denise there. I've been "elected" Camp Chief and Haikal is Vice Camp Chief.

The walk to dinner was awesome. We made fun of Ee Seuu on the way, since she's scared of the dark and all, but I immediately regretted it when Cheryn and her chased me down the route just to scream into my ears. >< A scrumptious dinner of "cheesy meat patty", and our energy levels were up enough for more work.

 Cheryn and Sen Rong helped out a lot with the logistic matters, while Gibson took photographs, and the rest of us prepared the water bombs. 1am reached faster than we thought, and we went to sleep.

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Day 2
Waking up at 6am plus for breakfast was well, tiring. But we, as the seniors, have got jobs to do. We took Bus 29 to Tampines, and I had a rushed breakfast of McDonalds. Some of the juniors arrived fairly early, so i had to head back fast to help prepare the stuff. Haikal, Zhi Yong, Garry, Chi Kit and Denise went back early with me and we emptied the living room.

The juniors were awesome people. Some were enthusiastic, some were uncooperative, some were really friendly, but most importantly, they're lovable all the same. We tried to get to know one another and started on a series of team building games and team competitions.

Along the team competition games at the beach, all the facilitators went on me and threw me into the ocean. Sand got into my pants and- I'll leave out specific details. Verena openly proclaimed she planned it one day before with everyone. Evil of you, girl.

Nightfall. Everyone worked together just to set up the BBQ. It was heartwarming to see everyone work together for a common goal.

Some of the juniors were integral to have really helped out a lot in cooking the food. I was saboed again when Heng Khit, Verena and Haikal spartaed me and started to whip cream me. >< Verena, you really are evil. You should be glad your interesting-ness makes up for that evil in my book. Cos I really can't hate interesting people. The end scene resulted in me looking like I was raped by multiple assailants and- Once again, I shall leave out the specific details. I managed to gain a new black SP shirt in the process, so I shall cease complaining.

One moot point of the second day was how many "look-alikes" of the seniors suddenly sprouted out. There was a girl who looked like Ynex, Suzanne, who everyone swears is the good twin of Verena and some others. Of course, the seniors and juniors kept on mentioning about how Ern and I look exactly the same, much to our chagrin, lol. Feh.

The juniors then left, without staying for group photos. Geez, you could've waited for a littler while more, guys.

The girls all left later at night, and the guys and Michelle started to chat till 2am in the morning. We chatted about girls, careers, our future, marriage... Things that will matter a lot to us in a few years after graduation
and NS. The super heaty deep fried food I had is integral to my cough and headache today, since they were, well, super heaty.

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Day 3

We checked out in the morning. Steve's alarm was ironically funny, since it woke everyone up; except for him. I had a cracking headache and neck cramp. The others embarked on playing Big 2 and watching TV.

We then went home. Slept all the way on the train, since I was super tired and feeling a little unwell. My voice is almost all gone, due to the announcing, commentating, hot sun and heaty food.

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To all the seniors who helped out these few days, thanks very much. I couldn't organised such a nice chalet if not for all of you who were there, and of course, my vice camp chief, Haikal, who racked his brains for the schedule and games and took over me a little in the noon when I started to feel a little unwell, Cheryn and Sen Rong, who worked a lot more than was assigned, Gibson, who relentless captured our memories on film, Zainol and Verena for being in charge of grub, and our fearless head, Michelle Neo.

Also, thanks to all the juniors for attending! This chalet's success would not have been possible if not for all of you. Thanks I hope you all enjoyed it.

P.S.: Photos will be posted up here, once Gibson uploads them. But I won't upload all 1.6k photos here. That'll be too overkill. :)

Ah, the stress released... temporarily

With the EMD paper done, my MSTs are finally over! ><

It's been a loooooooooooong week. Meeting good ol' Ern and studying with him everyday was worthwhile though. It was good bonding and we got a lot of work done. Though we missed the PED online quiz. I could've sworn Au Yong said it would be due on Friday 11:59pm. =.= Gonna confront him on Monday..

Met with Jun Yi and Anwar separately and played YGO with them. Feel so shiok after a hiatus of 1 1/2 week. >< Tomorrow meeting Noel and Anwar to practise for the Singapore Championships on 20th June. Decktypes for the three of us determined for now. It's gonna start owning, folks! =]

Also, need to start emailing the Robocup contestants starting tomorrow. And prepare for the chalet. Phew, things are gonna get tough even during the holidays, folks!

Have fun, all, during your holidays. =)

Random updates

My exam schedule the coming week. ><

Monday: PED, 10:30AM-12PM

Tuesday: PLC, 3.30PM- 5PM

Wednesday, SC, 3.30PM- 5PM

Friday, EMD, 3.30PM- 5PM

Alright folks. I'll keep this short. Not that anyone who is earnestly studying for their MSTs now would be even reading this.

To all SP folks, good luck for your MSTs the coming week.

Back to PED now. Ciao.

 

Random thoughts

I was once told: "People changes according to the environment they mingle in. It's an unavoidable thing, you can't stop it."

How I would like to agree to that! When I was in Sec Sch, I've "absorbed" PH and KY's and Yang Lao Shi's super sarcasm. In Poly, I've tried to be like ZY (Popular), Sunny (Adapatable), Garry (Calm), Ernest (Funny and witty), Zack (Friendly), Jonathan (Accepted by all) etc. The list goes on, friends. Pardon me if I didn't include your names. Trust me. I've "sucked up" a wee something from every single one of you guys that I treasure. Just like a vacuum cleaner.

Or a black hole

It's not exactly a bad thing to learn the positive traits of all my friends, but gradually, I realized my past self had been lost within the vortex of my attempts to be like all my friends. And I realized another thing. It might be caused by a fear that everybody might not like or accept the person lost within that vortex.

It may be self-improvement. But recently, I find myself very prone to paranoia. That people might not like the current me. Or accept the current me. That I need to change more, and that more of who I am will suddenly be lost in the vortex again. It's unavoidable, unfortunately

I'm sure everyone has more or less encountered the same problems, but everyone has different approaches to solve the problem. Some chooses to retain as who they are to avoid the pain and be spared the agony of always trying to adapt to different people who wants them to be what others like better. Some, like me, keeps on changing, changing... till eventually... they "disappear", and you more or less find a new person there you might not recognize.

I guess things happen. Quoting Fel, "This is the world. You have to go into it."

But my reply to his philosophy will always be, "Then I hate the world as it is."

My only greatest comfort are my friends, but it is ironic that chasing after them and trying to reach their level is also my greatest burden. To me, they're at a level so high that I cannot reach, and I'm constantly climbing to reach them, but halfway through, I fall, only to keep trying again. No, I'm not blaming you all. It's just something that sprouted in my mind. It just occurred to me that instead of trying to climb up to your totems, I should instead find my own totem, no matter how short, and climb up to it. You guys are so awesome packed that I'm scared that one day, I might not be able to reach your levels, then you'll leave me behind and climb even further.

Just my two cents worth of comments. No specific friends this message is intended for. It's intended for everyone whom I've regarded as a friend for the past 18 years plus of my life. And I'm not blaming you guys. Instead, thank you, all, for being my friends. Thank you for entering my life.

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MST week is next week. >_< Procrastinator alert much? 

Can't afford to fail anything. But I'm super worried for my SC. It's really really bad.

I pray to God that we can all get through this tough period, everyone. Good luck, everyone! :]

P.S.: Time to finish up my PED report due tomorrow...

Funnies

Haha, just read Garry's blogpost. Was freakin' hilarious.

It's about past hobbies. Man, I should compare my country flag erasers with him someday. xD

Today, Qiao Zhi told me something quite illogical. She said that looking at people's blog is like stalking them and that  people write blogs to read it themselves.

It's not just her. Apparently people like Ern also thinks that looking at a person's FB profile is equivalent to stalking them.

Ok people, time for a bit of education. Blogs are generally publicised, about thoughts you write to let people read. Then they comment on it, regardless of how nice/funny/stupid/dumb/retarded your thoughts are.

It's not stalking. People fully expect people to go to their blogs or FB profiles to read it and comment.

Stalker: Someone who prowls and sneak around; often with unlawful intentions.

 

So yeah, folks, don't confuse "following" with "stalking". The difference? The intentions.

On a totally unrelated note, my laptop's FINALLY gonna get fixed. Yes, yes, yes, yes. Won't need to quarrel with my mother or sister over the use of the laptop again. I'm going to uninstall Firefox and use Chrome though. Heard that it's really good.

MSTs coming, folks. Good luck to all SP students. :]

How I spent a completely free Saturday away...

One thing I noted today (along with the rest of my life). Singapore is damn freaking warm! Seriously folks. Stop your industrial stuff and all that tree cutting. I don't care much about world preservation, but when it causes me to sweat more when I don't want to sweat, it's personal.

Went to Acer Service Centre today to get my laptop fixed. Good news: Warranty still valid, which means that to replace the LCD,I don't need to play a single cent for now. ^^ Saw Kelly there, or should I say, she saw me, by some coincidence. Didn't stay to talk much though, other from a single 'hi'.

Another good news involved Jun Yi finding Noel's Caius with him. That got me real freaked out yesterday when I couldn't find it. ><

Alex invited some of us guys to his birthday party . Me and Ern went over, but we didn't stay for more than an hour, cos it was sorta awkward. The other guys stayed back in Sembawang for dinner in the end, while I left for the sweet comfort of an air-con at home. Way too warm outside, even at night. Anyways, Happy Birthday, Alex.

3 weeks later got qualifiers for YGO OCG World Championships. Noel and Anwar's gonna join. Should I? I can get my main deck fixed up by then, but my side deck will be incomplete. I'll definitely lose if I don't get a side deck well prepared, especially against Blackfeather and Lightlord decks. Maybe I should just join for kicks.

So yeah, completely gone, one Saturday.

YGO has to be put on hiatus for now. I've got more pressing matters now to deal with.

1) MSTs. The schedule's out. Monday-Wednesday, Friday for 4 papers.

2) SC Online quiz. Due Sunday 11:55pm. 10 friggin' attempts,

3) PED report, due Tuesday. I don't have a laptop with friggin' MultiSim. I'll need to depend on Ern for this on Monday.

The matters above are so suffocating I should totally focus on them asap. Will buy my stuff to build up my deck after the MSTs are over. But there's the chalet planning too... Exercise plans...

I need a time manager. No seriously, I'll need a time manager. My time's so tight I can't breathe.

And I need a hug. Badly. Not desperately, but I need some serious cheering up.

See you, folks. :]

LP8000 VS LP25

It was tough, it was an achievement, and seriously, it was a miracle. They guy had a full LP counter. I was left at LP25. I won. ^^

If anything, this has taught me that even if things look desperate, don't give up. Life sometimes has surprising twists in stall for you. All that is required of you, is to believe.

Met up with Anwar at 6:30pm and we played. Noel came at 9:30pm. We went home at 11pm, and I accompanied Noel in waiting for his 35 minutes bus. 5 hours of YGO without rest!!! ><

Fun is fun, but tbh, we're all now quite shagged. I believe we can all sleep like logs tonight. Tomorrow meeting up to play again, with Jun Yi.

Edited a few decks, came up with a few new ideas. But to be honest, after this Saturday, I will be stopping the cards till after MSTs.

PLC lab test and CSW class assignments went well today. More worried about the PED report and also, the SC online quiz. Need to start cracking tomorrow... after the card games!

Whew, adrenaline rush after almost losing to a complete stranger quite high today. Tomorrow will experience more of that. I'll just do my best and remember a valuable lesson my cards taught me.

Never give up even when the odds are against you. =)

Commitments

Commitments. Someday or other, they chase after you. But well, that's human. Everyone's gotta have one or two of those.

1) PLC Lab Test 1
2) CSW Class Test 1
3) PED Report
4) 4 MST papers

Time to get cracking.

I, for once, want to enjoy my holidays without worrying too much about my results. Chalet must enjoy thoroughly. And YGO tourney, must win with maximum pleasure.

Tomorrow Wed got class. Stupid CSW... I hate that module. Haiz, no choice la... Gonna sign up for driving lessons with Garry and ZY.

Realised that I haven't exercised in like, very long time. Tomorrow morning since free I gonna go for a little jog. Tonight will sleep early purely for that sake.

Ciao, all, wish me luck.

Today...

I did things today that I won't be able to forgive myself for. I found out facts that made me depressed.

I am so pissed off right now at myself that I want to punch myself like 5 times on the face to punish myself.

I am just a simple guy who wants to be happy, without the expense of others. But.. I am a coward. Yes, I am. People take the rap for me sometimes, forgive me, and all that. I appreciate it. But the feeling residing inside my heart will never be able to go away. I'm lucky to have friends like mine, but always taking advantage of their kindnesses. When I look at myself in the mirror, I get sick.

I suck. Big time.

Just realise that my photo assignment for my GEMs CA1 hadn't been officially started.I'm gonna change my theme to Yu-Gi-Oh! cards. Since we won't need to publicly present them, and only need to give in CD... well, I'll be able to deal with it.

Tomorrow is the last day of graduation. Good luck, seniors. Time sure flies. My turn next year already...

Tomorrow on, I'll also be embarking on a small journey. To find myself. And to trust in myself. I lack a lot of confidence, self esteem and optimism. With the way I am... I can't take on the world. Hesitance will only make people hate me. I need to rid myself of that factor.

I just realised a lot of people I know are beyond my horizons. They are as high and bright as the glittering stars in the sky, while I am... the useless sand on the ground people step on. I... want to fly and be on the same standing with them... but I can't. I don't know why, but I feel so helpless, so useless. When can I reach their level? When can I prove myself?

I don't know. I'm confused. I'm dumb. I'm stupid. I know.

I'll never get anywhere in the world with who I am now. If I want to rise, I need to discover dominant powers within myself, such as  "motivation", "drive" etc.

ZH, it's time to wake up.

You can't depend on your friends who can tank for you now for the rest of your life. Eventually, you'll need to stand alone against the world. And they will also have their lives to take care of.

Realise that.

What a day...

I wanted to help out with graduation, but couldn't... Haiz... I really really wanted to help. ><

Don't get me wrong. I love roadshows. I like hanging out with ZY, Garry and Steve. And I love Woodlands Ring, which I returned to after the parents' forum from before. But it's just that I really wanna help with graduation. Not to mentioned I left poor Haikal alone behind for the shift. Sorry about that, man.

Well, guess it can't be helped. I missed SPX too. This couldn't be compared to that one.

Friday meeting Anwar to pump up our decks for Saturday's Duel Tour. I really wanna test out my decks' capabilities.

Tomorrow PLC lab test. Hope I can handle it well, then one hurdle, GONE!~

Then after that, MST studies!

I really need to get started. Finish the tutorials! ><
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Most importantly, now is the magical moment, 12am, 20th May. Happy 19th Birthday, Sarah! Hope you remain beautiful, always. =)

1 1/2 hour to Sunday... Sian!!!

Sunday hasn't ended... but I can already feel the Monday blues. Damn, the weekend really goes like the wind.

And Week 5 is here. Robotics lab test, PLC lab tests are on the way. And also, I have assignments to pass up for PED and stupid CSW. Photo journal for GEMs needs to be passed up on Week 6. Argh, feels so much trying to catch up to me. MSTs coming in 2-3 weeks. Only comfort is that my Wed will still be free, and that next 2 Saturdays Jap class holidays.

Whoop-de-f*cking-doo. -.-

That small amount of break will definitely brush by in no time. I'm not even thankful for it now. Haiz...

Fri and Sat hung out with Jun Yi (only Fri), Anwar and Noel (only Sat). YGO all the way. till absolute exhaustion. Can't explain how a card game can bring you to the brink of mind collapse, but I can feel my mind getting sharper after playing again. At least, my mind's moving faster than the past two years I quit.

^The three Phantom God Cards

Next Sat we going on a YGO marathon around Singapore. I need to cut some slack (low budget), my schedule for the weekdays will be totally hectic. I'm excited over it.

Can't wait for the June holidays to come. Chalet would be mad awesome. It's like the only motivation for me to study now, so I can get through the tests with confidence and be content about it while playing in a chalet.

Anyways, school is gonna suck. I'm gonna go Rambo on caffeine. As Ern keeps pointing out, I've been falling asleep in classes. Not cool. I need some caffeine or sugar to keep me alert for class.

Tomorrow Robotics lab test. Thanks, Ivan, for the encouragement. I'll do my best.

Ok, all good luck in whatever you guys do.

Tata.

Things to do...

Right now, I have several of those...

• Finish my entire laundry
• Start to revise for MST (though it's early!)
• Start to exercise again
• ACER logo for ACER shirt (Made 2, but will be making more!)
• SP ACER JR Recruitment Powerpoint Slide
• Duel Duel Duel! (Noel coming out on Friday! The team meeting up on Sat! :])

Time really really goes by fast. In a flash, Monday night is here again. It seemed as if just yesterday Friday night was here.

I guess it might be attributed to my Saturday being 70% taken up by my Japanese classes that my weekend seem short. ><

Tomorrow: Tuesday. Fast coming in approximately 20 minutes. And I still don't have a third and final design for the ACER logo to hand in to Michelle. I guess I'm royally screwed. Nothing comes to mind! I just open my Photoshop, and I start to stun there for like 5 minutes. Nothing. 10 minutes. Nothing. 20 minutes. Nothing. And well, it goes on.

Today went to dinner at Xing Wang Hong Kong cafe with my sister, Xuan. I recommend all of you NOT to eat the curry chicken rice there. It's like 90% fat and 10% curry, and well, it's making me sort of sick now. The coconut milk taste lingers in my throat and I just want to puke now. In addition to my worsening cough (no thanks to curry!), a bad tummy is not what I need now.

Tomorrow, Tuesday, is my sister's revision time. Ern is coming over to teach her Maths. Then Wed we'll head over to Bishan together for the roadshow.

For my YGO life... I just made a new deck inspired by Anwar and partially PH in the past. Two new decks actually. I split my BEWD Beatdown into two sectors now: Dragon and Strategy (Kaiba and Yugi Styles, you can compare that way). I've been sort of testing both of them, but I want to play against some real opponents other than myself. Damn! Too bad Anwar is not free till Friday, and I'm going to have to cancel my outing tomorrow with Jun Yi due to some schedule conflict. I need a real good opponent!!! Noel's still in Tekong, zzz. The soonest I can pay is Sat! I can feel the restrain!!! Urgh!!!

Friday Jr. recruitment approaching. I super stress mode activated. Need to finish up my tutorial for my EMD soon also if I want to help out till 5pm.

I better go iron my father's clothes, drink my cough medicine, and go to bed. I'm in pretty bad shape now.

ACER gang, I miss you guys! >< I wanna meet you all so bad!

Same for the YGO khakis!

Nightz, all.